我变了，我没变。
it sets
Really in a writer's block right now, wrote two paragraphs and deleted the whole thing. Meh.
Got my results yesterday, probably the best one in a while. To be honest I only felt relief and not much excitement. Maybe it's because graduation is near, I'm more concerned about actual skills that I need to hone. A little terrifying FEAR. Still, results are important for now.
A picture I took in the train. Deep blue sky with striking contrast with the bright orange sunset, truly stunning!
Scrambled to find my camera, snapped a few shots and realised I needed to change lenses for a better picture. Then, for some reason, I just decided not to. I kept my camera and just ............. enjoyed it. Sure enough the train moved and there it was, a wide paddy field and the view was all mine to see.
If I was on land at the time it would've been one of my best pictures, but I can't even remember what it exactly looks like right now. Does it matter? No, cause I remember how it felt like.
That's all for today peeps.
constant change
As usual while eating in an Ipoh stall tonight people were selling things table by table. An uncle approached us with two packs of tissue and he said "Uncle doesn't have a job so uncle is selling you these, you can give how much you want :) " We bought them and rejected his offer to play us a song on his erhu.
Noticing I was snapping away with my camera, he said "Young man, uncle has a son and he likes to take pictures too :) .", and gave me a wide smile. The similarity between the way he and my grandfather talks is uncanny. I have no idea if he is just scamming us but his expressions were so genuine it's heartbreaking.
The table next to us paid him even more than us and requested a song, just like regulars. After he left, we overheard them saying the uncle was abandoned by his own son and has to make money on his own. To be honest, it didn't hit me how awful it feels until I reached home.
Whether it's just a plain rumour or the reality, or maybe it wasn't even his son fault. It still reminds us how fragile everything is, and how change is the only constant in life. You'll never know.
Never say never, just because you are a clean cut human being right now doesn't mean future conditions will not force you to change. Greed and lust. Temptations and desperation. We all have them, and they will change us.
This is starting to not make sense, I always spiral out of control when I start writing long. Sentimental blog fail =.= It's more of a reminder to myself to stand by certain principles. To treat my loved ones well, to help others, to accept change, to enjoy life, to be strong. Yea cheesy as hell but I is not care me likes cheesy stuff.
"When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by. If you just smile....."
Uuuu my love...
1
Me : "Lol look at the soy sauce, they look like sp................. tadpoles hahahaha" *eyes niece sitting beside*
Sis (aka mother of niece) : "Don't you think they look like sperms? lol"
Me : "...................................."
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Sis-in-law : "Dear, dear ah dear......................"
Brother : " 我不是鹿！！”
Ah my siblings, we're not always on the same page but I'm glad we at least understand each others' humour XD To be honest I don't think I can be with anyone that doesn't get my humour, it's very very crucial.
Street shots in KL.
There's been a little drama going on, unnecessary drama, unfortunate drama, which has rendered the atmosphere to be well.......... weird to say the least. But it is no longer my part to "fix" anything, I've done what I'm supposed to do.
Finished watching the first season of Community (clicky for trailer) today. Hilarious series! Recommended! It's about the life of a group of friends in college and yes, there's a few scenes that reminds me of real life. Accepting/ rejecting people in "the group", feeling confused about everyone taking different subjects, biting each other's head off, fearing for the future..... I'm making it sound depressing, it's not ~.~
Random food pics, cause I can :p
Going home tomorrow and is preparing to just stay home cause Raya week is pretty much TRAFFIC HELL WEEK. Dear god help me through the bus ride my mp4 player is broken T_T
Oh yes had first durian session in my le home-away-from-home @ Kampar Batu Hijau last night. Don't stalk me please. Used to be effin' in love with this place, then started to hate it guts and now it does feel a little homey after all the ups and downs.
Gotta work hard for finals, since I'm quite happy about coursework marks this semester, why waste it right~
Haven't changed much these few years, but I've learnt to wear a mask or two and not worry so much. When you learn to love yourself, know what you want, good things WILL come.
The future always seem rather hopeful to me nowadays, no matter how bad things seem:)
(yay for a blog post that finally looks like a blog post -.-)
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